Friday, September 7, 2012

Gunnar's away today

I remember thinking- "I need to blog this", but I can't remember what it was. It is now eight-thirty. The kids are in bed, well, maybe Avi is playing with toys in her room...., I've had two pieces of what turned out to be cheesecake brownies- it was suppose to be cheesecake with a brownie crust, but sometimes things don't turn out as well. But still totally worth eating. I have been trying to cut back on sugar, so today is my major splurge.
I am justifying it because Gunnar is gone. I told him after he got back from deployment he was never allowed to leave without me again. That was short lived! He is off on a choir retreat. I think it is ridiculous- he started class on Wednesday, the retreat was two days later and required. Honestly- people have lives!! I see how it can be a great fun thing for singles to get together and "bond', but really taking from family time for two days I think is a joke. My kids have been without their father about half their lives, and he is missing having time with them to go sing "kum-by-ah" and play "Do you know your neighbor". It really gets me because Gunnar was blessed with getting a job on Wednesday that is going to be 4 pm-12 am Tuesday-Friday, and he has a late lab on Monday, so while he is going to get home way after the kids are in bed and leaving probably before they wake up.

I e-mailed his professor to see if it was really required for him to go on this camp trip,and he said it was, but Gunnar could opt to take choir next semester because they don't have a retreat. I asked Gunnar to drop it this semester considering the work load he just acquired, and he responded that I had supported him in choosing to take choir, and that I shouldn't go back on supporting him- I told him the situation had changed- he did not have that job before. I am feeling frustrated. I know he is grown man and is responsible for himself- he can get all his work done if he really buckles down. I just as a mother that leaves her children as little as possible cannot understand him running off all the time. I know that this camping trip was just one more night, but is was more than I wanted.

The the kids both have colds. Gage's ear seems sore, but looks like it is healing well. He really is such a sweet heart. He gets up for a while and then sleeps for the rest of the morning the last two days, is up and happy for the rest of the day- while he and Avi go through many tissues. With Avi you would never guess there was anything wrong, except the huge gloppy trail of mucus between her nose and mouth. She is running all around.
Today while we were all outside we played with bubbles- Gage loves to watch them, Avi likes to catch them and try to use the wand- she is not the most effective bubble maker. We also played some soccer with a beach ball. I held Gage under his armpits and swung him like a foosball character and Avi ran and would kick and catch the ball. It really was so fun.
I made rhubarb strawberry jam this morning. It was the cheater jello kind- but Avi loved it, and I thought it was pretty tasty.
Avi calls tomatoes "matoes".

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